My Kind of Christmas

Its Christmas Eve and I have had this gnawing knot in my stomach all day long. As time passes, it brings me closer and closer to going home to NY to spend Christmas with my parents and siblings. Some of you may remember from past posts, that I hate going home. My father knows how to push all the right buttons and make me feel like shit. Now that I am in the midst of wedding planning, I can only imagine what terrors he has planned for me.

But all I can do in the meantime is focus on the here and now. My fiance went to work for a halfday and now he is here with me. We plan to cook up a storm, stuff ourselves, and watch movies. Spending time with him calms me and I am so grateful for these precious moments. I hope to hold the good memories close to my heart and not let my heart harden with all of the bad.

I know I haven't been on PNN  much this year but I have been keeping a close eye on many of you via facebook. Thank you all for the encouraging words that brought smiles to my face time after time. Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, just have a good time. See you all in 2010!!